He glanced down at his soup, stirring in a few oyster crackers.

"The scariest part of it was the idea of telling you. I just remember... I remember I didn't want to admit it because if I admitted it, I'd have to tell you. Because I tell you everything. And I was terrified that you'd-- I dunno. My brain couldn't even go that far because it all came down to you kicking me out and I just couldn't think past that."